Vulnerable

This is my third attempt at writing this& getting it to save. So far so good.

Had supper last night with Master and Carole which was very nice. Carole talked about Masters other women again & just ‘happened ‘ to be looking for the pencil Helen had given her when I first got there. …

I know I’m not his first, I know it’s an awkward situation for her – at least she’s been in a similar situation before whereas this is all new to me. I guess in time we’ll all become a bit more comfortable. I think I’m a bit tetchy as it’s that time of the month, probably why I’m feeling vulnerable & my confidence seems to have gone awol.

By the way my phobias are just as scary to me as anyone else’s are to them – don’t belittle me for them….

See what I mean “tetchy”…

Last night was the first time we were together as 3 since Carole had said yes to Master about me being his submissive – what would have happened if she’d said no? He told me a while ago he would probably carry on anyway but who knows – see confidence definitely not around right now.

Bloody periods (literally ha ha) what a few hormones can do to you is criminal…

so going to go put Masters collar on & kneel for a bit – need the peace, tranquility & calmness. xx (BTW those kisses are from me to me – you have to love yourself first right!)